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I'm in a funk.  Not sure if it's separation inflicted, holiday inflicted, or knee injury inflicted.  But, whatever it is I need to snap out of it.
Yesterday my BFF brought her babies  (1 year old daughter, 2.5 year old son) over for me to watch, while she and her husband went to a football game.  And she paid me for this.  Why, I do not know.  I should have paid her.  Sweet little Jack and Maddie where just what I needed to cheer me up for the day.  Snuggling with a sweet baby girl while she falls asleep for her nap.  Baby kisses and giggles.  Toddler speak.  Watching a Maddie walk, with that cute little I'm not too sure of myself waddle.  The Big One laying on the floor with bowl of popcorn, watching Shrek with Jack.  Bubba insisting he needed to lay down in the pack-n-play.  It was the best day I've had in ages.  Those two children are the second 2 cutest kids in the world (mine of course are the first).

So, I've decided.  I need another baby.  I know it's not a rational decision.  Probably could get me landed in a padded room if I spoke it aloud, in real life.  But, that is what I am going to focus on.  Of course, there are a few steps I must first take.  Like, becoming un-married from the hubby.  And making sure I'm financially secure.   Finding a willing participant might be a good idea too.  But, I will have myself another baby.  Not sure when, but it is a must.
I also have taken steps to go back to school.   I am just a few credits away from an associates degree, and 2 years from a bachelors.  It is something I have committed to myself to complete.  It will be part time, since I have to work and support myself and my children.  But I must graduate.  I must start doing something I love, not just something I like.
So there it is.  I get in a funk, and I come to the conclusion that one life changing situation isn't enough, I need to add two more to the mix to completely start over!
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Erin said…
Honestly, I swear watching other peoples children is the best!! I swear it is an awesome stress reliever and helps get you away from the real world to be silly and goofy for a couple hours!!! Always remember, you have a babysitter right here :-) & as for another baby & school- I think it's awesome!! I don't know how so many moms go back to school but I have seen it done and I have no doubt in my mind that you can't finish!!!! Hope to see you at swim tonight!!
November 28, 2010 at 10:57 AM
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