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I Quit

I've decided that the triathlon gods are against me.  The list of reasons why I can't do triathlons is growing.  Fast. 
Single mom, with two very active boys, that require lots of my time.  They both play sports year round,  That means I must drive them to practices, and watch their games. 
One income, that is barely covering the expenses.  That means no extra money for race entry fees, and necessary equiptment.
Injuries.  First my neck, now my knee.  I can not afford to be out of commission for work or mommy duties. 
I also can't afford doctor co-pays.

It sucks.  I found an activity that I love, that has given me a whole new sense of self worth, and lots of new friends, and I can't justify participating in it.  It seems the costs out way the benefits at this time.  I'm going to have to settle for volunteering at events, and cheering on my friends for now.  Unless I meet my new millionaire husband who happens to be an orthopedic doctor in the next 3 months that is.

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Unknown said…
This makes me sad, Caroline. Hang in there...things will get better. So what if you can't race next season. You can still have a great time training with all of us! There is light at the end of every tunnel.
Kelly, I don't want to give up, I just feel like it's the only option. I plan on doing what I can when I can. Just very down about it all.

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