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Bad Day

I guess I'm allowed to have bad days.  But today I just feel down in the dumps, want to put on my jammies, and hide under the covers and cry.  It sucks breaking up with your best friend.  Even if it is the best thing for both of you.  I just think this would be so much easier if I hated his guts.  But I don't hate him.  I love him.  Just not the way you are supposed to love the person with whom you share your life with until death do you part.  And I really need a hug right now, but there is nobody here to hug me.  Add to that the fact that Starbucks was broken when I stopped to get a Pumpkin Spice Latte.  Now how am I supposed to cheer up?

I had a crazy doctor appointment today.  And it was determined that I have PMDD.  Guess who is premenstrual right now?  Right, that would be me.  Probably most of the reason I'm so crabby and sad today.  Unfortunately, the antidepressant that I am on does not work for PMDD, but it seems to be working otherwise.  So, they don't want to change my meds.  There is a supplement that is supposed to work, and she is sending me the info on it so I can add that to my old lady pill box.  Isn't that great?  How the heck did this become my life?

So, my plan for this weekend, an entirely kid free weekend, is to make a play list of songs that make me not feel like crap.  Songs to boost me up and pull me out of a funk.  Songs that make me want to smile, and dance, and not be sad.  What songs do you recommend?   Oh yeah, I'm also planning on drinking.  Sitting home on Saturday night and having a few drinks.  You are all welcome to come join me.  BYOB.  But come on over!  Anyone can come to my pity party :-)

P.S.  She also prescribed a new sleeping pill, since I'm not sleeping through the night still.  But warned me not to take it when I'm home alone because people have been known to "sleep drive" so I need to make sure someone is here to babysit me!  YIKES.  Now I'm afraid to take it.
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Anonymous said…
We all have bad days sister. remmeber, the reason exercise is one of the best medicines is because it releases endorphins, and it releases the stress!
February 3, 2011 at 6:38 PM
Unknown said…
Ohhh caroline we are so much alike. I wish we could have stayed in touch better. I have always missed you and understood you. I think its a gemini thing.:) You have always been in my thoughts and still are now. If you ever need anything I am here for you. I look forword to your purse party thing just to have a chance to see you! Hope you have a better day tomorrow. Luv your childhood and lifelong friend no matter what. Suzanne
February 3, 2011 at 8:26 PM
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