Today I am officially starting over with my training. I feel I have been neglecting that part of myself way too much. I know I have to focus on getting better, but if I'm not training enough, and properly, I'm not ever going to be better. So this week, I will hit every planned work out, and I will fuel myself to do those workouts sufficiently. I will give a full report with my weeks stats next Sunday night, scouts honor. This blog started out as a journal of my training to someday be an Iron Man, and that is what it is going to go back to. I'm not going to let my set back sideline me from my goals. Feel free to call me out if I slack, at all!
Today is our 13th wedding anniversary. Tomorrow is the 1 year anniversary of me finding out about the other woman, and two days after that is when we agreed to end the marriage. This weekend I'm moving out of my house. Basically the week sucks. Then throw in the anniversary of my miscarriage fourth of July weekend, and I may as well put myself back in the psych ward for the next 3 weeks. Yesterday I spent the day mourning what had been my life. The boys went with their dad for father's day, and I lay in bed sobbing and crying and wishing it would all go away. I remembered all of the awesome fun times we had as a family. I thought about our wedding day, the days the boys were born. The fun times we had together. Tonight they will be with him too. I'm going to go for a long ride and run, and then come home and probably cry just a little more. Then, tomorrow, I will move on. I will pick up the pieces...
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