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New Beginnings...

I just got home from visiting one of my best friends in the hospital. She was there because she just 24 hours ago became a mom to her first born child.  A "little" baby boy named Johnathan.  I say "little" because, well, he was almost 10 lbs.  9lbs 14.5ozs to be exact.   She only gained 20 lbs!   And this big beautiful new life was as wanted as any baby could have been.  Several months of trying, followed by a miscarriage, and then more months of trying.  Little Johnny is finally here.  I couldn't be happy for his mom and dad.  I got to hold him tonight when I went to visit.  Watching him try to put his fist in his mouth, rooting for his mother's breast.  He is simply perfect.  I can still smell his new baby smell on my hands.  Nothing brings me greater peace than holding a new, innocent baby.   And seeing how sweet and tender the new daddy was with his son brought a tear to my eye.
I remember those moments with both of my boys.  It's something you can never erase from my memory.   I remember becoming a mother for the first time over 14 years ago.  And it doesn't matter that he wasn't planned, that he was a surprise to us all.  He was, and still is, just as wanted as baby Johnny. Hard to believe that little 7 lb 14 oz baby is now taller than me, and doesn't show signs of stopping any time soon!
That is how I am going to view my current situation in life.  As a new beginning. It wasn't what I had planned, but as The Big One taught me, sometimes the unplanned  situations and surprises in your life are just what you needed.  It might not smell as wonderful as a new baby.  But it is still  a fresh start, an opportunity to have peace.  So as my friend starts her new journey as a mom, I will embark on my journey as a single mom.   A rebirth in a way.

BTW, I am now officially registered for two sprint triathlons!  The rest of my race schedule is up in the air, awaiting advice from the experts as to what is possible, what is pushing it too far, and what will get me closer to being able to make it to 140.6 in 2012.

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Anonymous said…
Beautiful outlook! I would reccommend a 70.3, and I would also reccommend a few half marathons and 1-2 centuries. Remember, you can create your own event, that's sometimes the best way! Set the date for Caroline's half marathons and for her centuries, gather some friends and have fun!!!

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