So, today I am both flying high happy about many things, and screaming mad pissed off about others. So, I'm going to post a few rants about things that are just rubbing me the wrong way, and then I will rave about what is making me happy. A balance of sorts!
Things that make me grumpy:
I have no money. None. Doctor co-pays, prescription co-pays, missing many days of work with no sick time over three different weeks, meaning not receiving a full pay check until next week equals me not having enough to pay the bills. Not to mention "loaning" money to someone, who forgot they were going to pay me back. I hate that I work full time, yet don't have the means to support myself.
I'm sleepy. My oldest got up at 1:30, thinking it was time to get ready for school. Got in the shower, and couldn't understand why I didn't have his clothes ironed when he got out. He barely remembers any of this. I remember it vividly because it interrupted my sleep. On a night that Bubba actually slept in his own bed all night. I could have slept so well. But I didn't. I miss sleep.
We haven't had cable since before Christmas. I ordered Fios to come. They were supposed to come yesterday. Somehow, we got unscheduled. My kids are very disappointed. I'm not so happy. Now they come next Saturday morning. That stupid digital converter box sucks. If it weren't for Netflix on demand, my kids would have permanently abandoned me by now.
Men. Or Boys trying to pass themselves off as men. Men who can't understand that I am on an emotional roller coaster at the moment. Men who think that what they want is more important than what I need. Men who have now been deleted from my cell phone contact list, and my life, forever.
Snow. I'm done with winter. If it weren't for my fear of things with more legs than four, I would move very far south.
Both of my prescriptions can cause a certain side effect, and lucky me, I am being blessed with that side effect. I won't tell you all what it is. But I don't like it, not one bit.
Things that are currently making me happy:
Someone I have never met, but who I have formed a connection with, has offered to "loan" me a trainer. I can now get in training every day, no matter what! How cool is that? Very! I will forever be in her debt. And am continuously amazed at how generous and supportive the triathlon community is. Overwhelmed by all that I have been given by so many.
My therapist. She is amazing. Although I'm convinced she gets paid more if she can get me to cry. I think it's in her contract or something. But, today, she told me she was glad to see me smiling. I do feel like we're getting somewhere. I've seen some glimmers of hope for a promising future.
Someone told me I was "very beautiful and have a nice smile" I haven't been called beautiful by a guy in ages. And I don't think I have ever been called very beautiful. That made my day, week, month... And made me think that I might actually find a man who will fall in love with me someday.
I get to spend the entire weekend with my boys. I don't have to share them with their dad. Friday night and Saturday night. I haven't had them both for two straight weekend nights since before the first of the year. This makes me smile. Lots!
I'm getting a new tattoo. I don't know where I'm going to put it, it's still in the design stage, and I can't afford it right now anyway, but I know I'm getting one, and I can't wait.
Our annual ski trip with the world's most awesome cousin in-laws is coming up soon. It will be a little different this year since it's just me and the boys, but these people will remain my family no matter what. He may become my ex-husband, but they will never be my ex-in-laws!
P.S.
If you read all the time, please become a follower, it makes me very happy! And judging by the number of hits I get, more people read than officially follow. And please oh please leave me comments. Comments make me very happy!
Things that make me grumpy:
I have no money. None. Doctor co-pays, prescription co-pays, missing many days of work with no sick time over three different weeks, meaning not receiving a full pay check until next week equals me not having enough to pay the bills. Not to mention "loaning" money to someone, who forgot they were going to pay me back. I hate that I work full time, yet don't have the means to support myself.
I'm sleepy. My oldest got up at 1:30, thinking it was time to get ready for school. Got in the shower, and couldn't understand why I didn't have his clothes ironed when he got out. He barely remembers any of this. I remember it vividly because it interrupted my sleep. On a night that Bubba actually slept in his own bed all night. I could have slept so well. But I didn't. I miss sleep.
We haven't had cable since before Christmas. I ordered Fios to come. They were supposed to come yesterday. Somehow, we got unscheduled. My kids are very disappointed. I'm not so happy. Now they come next Saturday morning. That stupid digital converter box sucks. If it weren't for Netflix on demand, my kids would have permanently abandoned me by now.
Men. Or Boys trying to pass themselves off as men. Men who can't understand that I am on an emotional roller coaster at the moment. Men who think that what they want is more important than what I need. Men who have now been deleted from my cell phone contact list, and my life, forever.
Snow. I'm done with winter. If it weren't for my fear of things with more legs than four, I would move very far south.
Both of my prescriptions can cause a certain side effect, and lucky me, I am being blessed with that side effect. I won't tell you all what it is. But I don't like it, not one bit.
Things that are currently making me happy:
Someone I have never met, but who I have formed a connection with, has offered to "loan" me a trainer. I can now get in training every day, no matter what! How cool is that? Very! I will forever be in her debt. And am continuously amazed at how generous and supportive the triathlon community is. Overwhelmed by all that I have been given by so many.
My therapist. She is amazing. Although I'm convinced she gets paid more if she can get me to cry. I think it's in her contract or something. But, today, she told me she was glad to see me smiling. I do feel like we're getting somewhere. I've seen some glimmers of hope for a promising future.
Someone told me I was "very beautiful and have a nice smile" I haven't been called beautiful by a guy in ages. And I don't think I have ever been called very beautiful. That made my day, week, month... And made me think that I might actually find a man who will fall in love with me someday.
I get to spend the entire weekend with my boys. I don't have to share them with their dad. Friday night and Saturday night. I haven't had them both for two straight weekend nights since before the first of the year. This makes me smile. Lots!
I'm getting a new tattoo. I don't know where I'm going to put it, it's still in the design stage, and I can't afford it right now anyway, but I know I'm getting one, and I can't wait.
Our annual ski trip with the world's most awesome cousin in-laws is coming up soon. It will be a little different this year since it's just me and the boys, but these people will remain my family no matter what. He may become my ex-husband, but they will never be my ex-in-laws!
P.S.
If you read all the time, please become a follower, it makes me very happy! And judging by the number of hits I get, more people read than officially follow. And please oh please leave me comments. Comments make me very happy!
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